I just viewed some of the bloggers here and my oh my! they have kids. an beautiful kids at that! I just cant help but envy them.
Brought back the memories of my lost baby, i had a miscarriage, the doctors said that it just happen that some time or unfortunately babies stopped growing. Stillbirth is not an uncommon issue nowadays they said. It just happens without reason. My partner and I was so devastated for we are very excited about my pregnancy, on my 2nd month i bought some things for my baby choosing green and yellow colors for the babys gender is not yet ready to be known for that month.
Well, sad things happen. And we're now on our way to recovery but the fear of having another child is there. We named him John Calvin, And ive written 2 letters to God before we knew what had occured to our baby, thanking Him for giving an advance gift for christmas, And 2 or 3 letters after we knew about the incident. A letter for my child. And a letter again to God. Questions are still at present and praying and asking God to watch our baby for us and asking Him to tell John calvin that we love him and he will always be remembered as i will continue to look at his fathers eyes and smiles; he will always be with us.
The grief is eased even a little when i knew that i am not alone, that still birth also happens to some but still continues to believe.
I would be posting my letters here on my blog. soon.
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